Are you haunted by the things that you want to forget? keeping you stuck where you don't want to be?
Post traumatic disorder is a condition that affects people neurologically- causing massive emotional and mental distress.
PTSD can start after any traumatic event, it is a normal reaction to your life being in danger, a frightening event, or where you have or you have seen others injured.
If you have been through abuse, a violent assault such as rape, a physical attack, been mugged or tortured, a frightening experience, prisoner of war, miscarriage, a traumatic birth or had violent trauma or accident that has endangered your life.
For a long time it has only been recognised as men having PTSD, primarily war veterans, but is it not sensible to ever believe that women can and do have this deliberating mental illness that stops life in its tracks?!
As women, we suffer childhood abuse, birth trauma, miscarriages are subject to physical violence from men that we love and so much more.
How many women are walking around not even knowing that they have PTSD?
With 1 in 3 women being subjected to rape and sexual assault across the world, how many of these women are battling PTSD everyday in silence?
There is and never has been enough to support women in any shape or form when it comes to protecting their mental health.
Not to mention our service men are coming home and spending years upon years taking ridiculous amounts of medication, without an proper way to release the trauma.
Women are now coming into the spot light and finally being recognised for having PTSD too, yet there is not enough being done to help these people without the prescription drugs or mind numbing- retriggering counselling and psychotherapy.
However, PTSD can occur at any age
Post traumatic stress disorder can strike straight after the event, or it can gradually creep up on you weeks or even months later, like a build up of massive stress and reliving the ordeal.
It is normal for people to go through the usual after affects of trauma, such as-
Although these are normal reactions, there are also many signs that go hand in hand with PTSD...
Doing 'normal' things in your day and smelling, hearing, seeing, someone bumping into you, or a cashier brushing your hand, something that suddenly makes you feel like you are in a time warp, everything moving so fast and suddenly you are back there again.
Do you feel the sensations on your skin, the noises in your ear, only this time you know the pain, you know the utterly loneliness of visiting that place over and over on a daily basis?
For so long we have been expected to sweep our experiences under the carpet - to forget about them and move on in life.
No one ever tells you that the triggers will come and get you, like an icy cold hand on your shoulder, making you turn back and step back into that moment.
We relive our triggers through 1 or more of our 5 senses- a picture, a sound, a smell, a touch or taste, something so simple can trigger that moment, a moment from that time you want to forget.
Does your pain follow you around? Eating you up from the very core of you?
You see- once you understand how we hold the emotions in our body, in our energy system- because we are all made up of energy- it is scientifically proven!
Which you can read all about in my book- Understanding Me, Myself & I, a full comprehensive, science backed book of understanding you, how you are made up, why you feel the way you feel and why its is not your fault.
This is due to the 'emotional box' within us- we stuff all of emotions into this, we suppress them, we hide them and lock them away, thinking that we are putting on a brave face, that no one can feel or see how we feel inside, but they can.
Not to the extent that you are feeling, but they can feel something is a miss, we all know when there is something not right with someone, its our intuition- our 6th sense, we feel peoples energy.
There are some really great articles on this website that can help you understand and deal with all stress related issues, anxiety, trauma and pain. Explanations on what is happening within your body and what it is all about.
Please feel free and download the first two chapters of my book for free, which gives you a clear understanding of you, why you feel the way you feel and why it is not your fault. Understanding Me, Myself & I- I know it will help you so much.
It is the bridge between the 'woo woo' that is energy and our emotions, the science behind all of it and best of all the signs that you are not functioning at the level you should be, the reasons why you are experiencing Pain, IBS, PTSD, Anxiety, Fibromyalgia, ME and so much more.
PTSD is a condition that had me in its grips for nearly 13 years in total, gave me severe IBS, night terrors, bad dreams, alcoholism and drug dependency.
When I lost my baby at 26 weeks pregnant, the counsellor in the hospital who specialised in pre birth lost told me:
"be grateful, I have just had one lady lose her 8th baby!"
Yes, sad, but too be utterly honest I couldn't give a damn about that other lady at the time, I was in pieces myself and crying out for someone to understand and take my pain away.
For almost 9 years I felt the physical sensations of losing my baby, how it felt when he passed, the sounds of him falling into the toilet. The starkness of the bright white hospital lights, the sounds of the hospital.
I spent the night on the ward wide awake listening to the sound of the storm outside beating the windows, howling through the poorly fitted hospital windows, the rain beating on the glass.
The noise. I remember laying there, I visited that bed and relived every moment of that night in such detail, and still now I can bring that memory, although still very far away in my mind, it's a distant memory that I know too well, like an endless broken record playing. Excep now there is no pain, no PTSD. I am free.
My first encounter with PTSD was when I left home- waking up screaming and crying in the night- all the suppressed emotions and memories came chasing me in the night.
When I lost my first baby at 26 weeks pregnant, I recognised the tale tale signs of PTSD, They were so strong, they were painful, reliving the physical and emotional feelings, the sounds and smells of the hospital, they would get me at any moment, stop me in my tracks and turn me into a frozen shaking, nervous mess.
The night terrors were horrible, but as time went on and the source of my terrors and emotions was far far away, I was able to throw myself into studying and fitness, a way of making myself feel good.
With the help of pills I was able to control the agitating depression and anxiety- labelled with manic depression and stuck with a community psychiatric nurse, passed from one counsellor to the next, gradually managing to control the symptoms, but drinking too much alcohol turned me into a gibbering crying mess, so I turned to drugs to help combat the pain and lift me- my happy day of partying and doing drug, was secretly my release from myself and the pain.
Even the fatal overdose didn't work as I had eaten a packet of my brothers Ritalin which stopped me going into a coma. There was no escaping the pain, I couldn't even die!
The PTSD became manageable as the years grew, my addiction to alcohol got me through the days, bulimia popping its head up every now and again as a way of making me feel better, a release.
Feeling utterly isolated, my heart was painful, my life bleak, I was miserable and it reflected into my new husband, my child and everything in my life.
One day I was invited along to an EFT (emotional freedom therapy) session where the women worked on the emotions and pain of what I was holding- she took me back to the young girl in the hospital bed and the pain I felt was more than I had ever known - I cried and I cried, more than i had ever cried before and afterwards, I was released, I was free.
Finally I was free to live my life.
I was so amazed that I became an EFT practitioner, on a mission to save everyone! I stopped drinking and turned my life around.
I then met PTSD again after giving birth to my second son, his birth was horrific and left me mentally reliving that again and again, not severally, but enough for me to cry in a moment and feel the guilt and shame of how I felt.
Although mild this time, with the energy medicine tools I had I was able to over come this and prepare for the birth of my daughter 2 years later.
What I didn't realise over the years, that even though I had released the pain and trauma of these events leading to my PTSD.
That it would have such a huge knock on effect in every area of my life- I was still carrying these emotions in my energy, in my cells, still feeling the hatred, shame, guilt and powerlessness of all of these life events.
This was my inner talk, my beliefs.
It affected my marriage, my confidence, my ability to handle my children, my whole life. I just wanted to disappear into the carpet every day single day, hating waking up to face another day of being me, being in my mind that was never still.
My door is always open, I am here to listen and to help, I get it, truly I do, I have been there and have come through the other end, which I never thought was possible.
Drop me a line at [email protected], reach out to me, I am here to help you. Its now my personal mission.
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Jeani Howard is an intuitive healer and award winning therapist who specialises in Pre & Post Natal care and PTSD as well as childhood trauma & anxiety. Her desire is to help as many people as possible to feel better. Help her hit her 1 million!
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